I love reading this blog. I love her style and outlook on life! She cracks me up! She follows this blog and I wanted to do the prompt for this week. So here we go. Won't you join too?
If you really knew me you would know that my personal views on the current government are less than stellar but I still serve them, as that is my job.
If you really knew me you would know that I want to volunteer at the USO as soon as little C is ready; and that I thank every single Soldier/military personnel that I see.
If you really knew me you would know I am the stereotypical first/oldest child.
If you really knew me you would know that when I was growing up I told my parents I would NEVER get married or have children before I had $50,000 in my bank account, owned my own home, and was established in my career; then I met Jonathan and we all know what they say about best laid plans.
If you really knew me you would know that I do not think highly of myself, that I am super critical and hard on myself. I am trying to work on that.
If you really knew me you would know that I do not adjust to change well.
If you really knew me you would see that I am fiercely loyal and protective of those in my "inner" circle. I have always been a "mama bear" hence my nickname in high school on the JROTC Girls Drill team "Mama Crystal". I even have a shirt they made me!
If you really knew me you would know that I do not feel I am a great mother, but I try my very best everyday and at the end of the day I am exhausted; but I love my little girl more than the world and would even disown my "inner" circle for her.
If you really knew me you would know that I am still learning how to be friends with women. I know this sounds strange but growing up I was a tomboy, and then in the Army I was surrounded by mostly males so befriending females is not a strong suit of mine, but I am trying.
If you really knew me you would know that I journal everyday, have a slight addiction to journals, notebooks etc and my thoughts are rather scattered within several journals these days.
If you really knew me you would know that I have an addiction to Coke Zero and buying/organizing scrap booking supplies, ledgers, journals, and sweat pants (the wide leg kind!).
If you really knew me you would know that putting this out there is a little scary.
If you really knew me you would understand why I hate malls or other big crowds since returning from duty in Iraq in 2005. You would understand my need to be hyper alert, cautious, and anxious. You would understand why I am so pissed that MD does not allow (or rather makes it extremely difficult) to get a concealed weapon permit. You would know that I carry pepper spray everywhere and have had to use it only once. You would know why I am fail to meet mental expectations that the Army has set and you would understand how ironic that is since my "mental state" (anxiety) was caused by serving for the Army.
If you really knew me would you still like me? Even after all these secrets?